As I prepared for my mission I realized pretty quickly that God was asking me just how much I really loved him. Do I love him more than my Iphone, do I love him more than my car? How about my job or my friends? Do I love him more than I love my family? As my MTC arrival date drew closer I gave up each of my comforts one my one. I was being asked to show God that I would love him above all else.
As a missionary I am put through the same test again and again. Do I love him more than than my comfort zone? Do I love him more than familiarity, or new friends? My life is in constant motion. When life is becoming comfortable and familiar it's time to move onto the next place, or next companion, or new investigators.
This experience has taught me many things about myself, and about the gospel. The biggest lesson I have learned is to Center my life on Jesus Christ and rely moment to moment on the Holy Ghost. The only true constant any of us have in our lives is the Savior. My mission is a pressure cooker for this kind of experience, but each of us needs to strip away all the excess in our live. We are then left with the ultimate source of comfort and strength, Jesus Christ.
"Grace is not a boaster engine that kicks in once our fuel supply is exhausted. Rather it is our constant energy source. It is not the light at the end of the tunnel but the light that moves us through the tunnel. Grace is not achieved somewhere down the road. It is received right here, right now."
A missionaries job is to become comfortable with being uncomfortable. It has taught me to rely on my Savior. I know that he loves me, and that he will guide my future. He is mindful of each of us, and if we can strip way the clutter we will find him waiting with open arms.
3Nephi 13: 28-33
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